elevator emotions.

It’s been a while since my last post.  I’ve even had the thought of stopping my blog all together.  Sometimes with the busyness of life I forget how much writing heals my soul.  I’m grateful that my family knows as well, because they are good about giving me a sweet subtle reminder that they haven’t read anything from me in a while.  I can usually feel the tug at my heart as well.

Over the past couple of months I have had a plethora of emotions.  It’s been quite a challenge to keep them all in their proper place.  Since the passing of my sister (almost 3 months), life has been different. Odd.  There are tears that still seem to come out unexpectedly and literally fall before I can catch them.  I’m usually good at being in control, but lately I’m like an elevator.  I could say like a roller coaster but I still like the control part.

Like an elevator in a department store, it can stop on different floors where you can either get off  or stay on and someone else gets on.  I feel like that in my life right now.  There are those amazing moments that take you right to the top floor, like your boy being named captain of the basketball team next year, an amazing spring &summer basketball opportunity, and great academic achievements.

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Then there are those moments when you get an old picture in the mail that reminds you of what you lost.  When you suddenly remember that she’s not here to talk you through your emotions.  That you can’t share all of the awesome stuff going on in your life.  Sometimes I even feel guilty for being happy and forgetting briefly that there is sadness to deal with.

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Sometimes, on the elevator you just want to go directly to the floor that you intended when you got on, but there are stops along the way.  My stops are great dates with girlfriends that include some belly bouncing laughs  and some random tears, and meeting new people who you wonder where the heck have they been all of my life?!  I was convinced many years ago that God brings people into your life to replace the ones that don’t do the “job” that He intended.  And yes, that includes family.  Lots of emotions there.

I hope this doesn’t sound as if I’m having a pity party, because I’m blessed.  I have an awesome life.  Just like everyone else I’m walking through life and sorting through what it brings me.

So guess what?  I made the decision to run my first 5k.  I know it’s not a marathon, but seriously people somebody stole this once athletic body of mine and now I’m forced to whip it into running shape.  Yikes, now that it’s public I can’t bail out huh?!  Just kidding, I’m very excited.  When you live with Olympians (not really but close), eventually you have to surrender to a life of fitness.  They got me.  Everyday I battle with emotions that say can I really do it or this is crazy!  Thank God I have the best motivator anyone could ask for.

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Did I mention my boy is almost a Senior? Talk about emotions.  Who in the world said he could grow up so fast.  I still see him with missing teeth and unable to pronounce his L’s.  I’m telling you right now, the tears will fall in the upcoming months.  I used to hold them back and confess that “I don’t do sad”, but who am I kidding??

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And guess who’s turning 40 this Summer?! Yep, Emotion City USA!  Lots going on in this head of mine, GEEZ!  I’m actually looking forward to the next phase of my life.  Forty doesn’t scare me…as long as I keep moving.  And I can hardly wait to see my life-long, childhood, California BFF as well.  I’m so honored that she would make the trip to see me for such a big birthday…more emotions.

So, that’s pretty much what’s going on with me lately, never a dull moment.  If you see me, have Kleenex. Just kidding, I’m ok and I promise to do a better job writing.  I feel better already.

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just in case…

Just in case…basketball doesn’t work out??

We’re certainly NOT counting on that being the case, but I’m sure NOT gonna deny this kid’s modeling potential.

If you’ve read anything I’ve ever posted about my boy, you’ll know that this kid was born to wear a suit.  He’s always had a love for fashion and looking good.   You’ll also know that he LOVES his basketball and his motto has always been,

“when you look good, you feel good, and when you feel good, you play good.”

Last month when he turned 17, we decided to set up a photo shoot  for him and tie in the 2 things he loves.  It was fun and the pics came out amazing.  Here are a couple candid shots that I took while the model was warming up.

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This is how they turned out…

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Of course mama’s favorites are the ones with the smiles, but those serious face ones are the real him.  The kid who’s serious about his future, keeps his circle small, and loves deep.

And of course we had to have some action too…

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Aren’t those fun!? So what do ya think, America’s Next Top SPORTS Model??  HA!

To be continued…

Check out our fabulous photographer!

Glorious Purpose Photography

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grief check.

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So this grieving process is no joke.  It’s only been a little over a week and not even a week since my sister’s funeral.  My emotions are all over the place.  I don’t like it.  There have been several times that I’ve thought to call her, especially during the times we would routinely talk.  My […]

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Sister.

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On Monday, as my mom held the phone to my sister’s ear, I said in my usual voice… Sister, I love you! That was the last time she heard my voice.  Sister, as we called each other left this earth to be with her Father in Heaven. It’s only been 2 days and yet I […]

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The A to Z of Me {J is for…}

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I’ve decided that every Monday {hopefully} I will do a letter about me.  Why? Well, why not  { J is for Junky } No, I’m not on drugs, nor am I a hoarder.  Haha! The junky that describes me is the love that I have going to junk stores and bringing home a piece of […]

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my new favorite app.

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Thanks to my California Bestie… Yep, that’s us! Friends since childhood {moms were besties). Any way, thanks to her I get in on all the latest and greatest!  Being that she’s a Southern California Social Media Icon, I’ve got the “friends with benefits” pass!  We have tons of fun together, even when we live thousands […]

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mug luv

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So, besides doing nothing all weekend (the best kind), I did a little fun easy project. My inspiration was from Pinterest (of course)… A vintage bottle drying rack used as a mug holder. Loved it and had to have one of my own. After searching Etsy and several other sites, I decided that spending over […]

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Archetypes

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So, I stumbled across one of those personality type quizzes & tests.  Breezy and I love taking those.  They’re just fun and it’s kinda amusing how accurate they can be.  Sometimes I wonder why I’m drawn to certain people, places or things.  Well this cool quiz kinda explains why.  Now don’t take this too seriously, […]

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That Season Again.

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I’m up early on a Saturday morning.  It doesn’t happen very often, but when it does, it’s usually damp outside, the air is crisp and the leaves are covering my driveway.  This is my favorite season of all.  Something about it inspires me. As I was strolling through a few of my blog crush’s posts […]

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Throwback Thursday & A Contest!

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Isn’t this the cutest little Runner Bumble Bee!?!  Last year she ran The Monster Dash 5k as a bee! But this year Breezy needs your help!! This year she will be teaching her ZUMBA class in a costume and she needs help deciding what to “be”. We decided to make this fun and ask our […]

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